Weightless by Kandi Steiner
(Website, Twitter, Facebook, Goodreads)on June 16th 2016
I remember the lights.
I remember I wanted to photograph them, the way the red and blue splashed across his cold, emotionless face. But I knew even if my feet could move from the place where they had cemented themselves to the ground and I could run for my camera, I wouldn’t be able to capture that moment.
I had trusted him, I had loved him, and even though my body had changed that summer, he’d made sure to help me hold on to who I was inside, regardless of how the exterior altered.
But then everything changed.
He stole my innocence. He scarred my heart. He took everything I thought I knew about my life and fast-pitched it out the window, shattering the glass that held my world together in the process.
I remember the lights.
The passionate, desperate, hot strikes of red. The harsh, cruel, icy bolts of blue.
They symbolized everything I endured that summer.
And everything I would never face again.
This is the second book this week that I’ve read that had a vague synopsis. Instantly, I was intrigued. What was the main character talking about? Whatever it was, I knew that it was major—all she remembered: lights.
Natalie Poxton had always been overweight, but she didn’t realize how unfulfilled she felt until her boyfriend dumped her and his new girlfriend humiliated her. Her defining moment hit home, and Steiner did a masterful job of writing a relatable character. Of course, as someone who realized one day that she didn’t like the person that stared back at her, I understood why she wanted to do something. Anyone who has lost weight will connect with her—I did. I got the need to go for a long run, to lose yourself in the workout. Anyone who didn’t have a size four handed to them on a silver platter and had to work to sweat off the pounds will understand. It wasn’t about the weight, per se, but about how she saw herself. I loved Natalie for all her flaws, for how she didn’t always see herself as beautiful, and how she accepted that it was okay to find comfort in someone else loving her when she didn’t have the strength to. Natalie didn’t show weakness—she showed resolve. Her strength grew from the want and need to be a better person, to be a healthier person, and to be someone who didn’t take crap from anyone.
From the moment I met Rhodes, I expected it to end badly. The bad boy, the personal trainer with a not so clean clientele, and the broken twenty-one year old that felt trapped in Poxton Beach, South Carolina. He had a stubborn streak and an attitude that needed a major adjustment, but I commended Natalie for trying to break through to him. I enjoyed watching them fall for one another, even if I had the inklings of something bad sitting on the edge of things.
This is a new adult read, so there were some steamier bits. Rhodes was the older, more experienced guy, and Natalie was the innocent girl that had had her heart broken. The sexy scenes weren’t what made me—and Natalie—fall in love with Rhodes; I fell for how he treated her, the moments that he showed just how much he cared. It is intended for a more mature audience, but the story had a deep undertone behind it that will keep you guessing.
The ending did and did not surprise me. I read this book pretty fast. I started it yesterday afternoon and finished it before nine o’clock this morning. It was difficult to put down, and Steiner’s writing is effortless. The cover is beautiful already, but when I realized what scene from the book was used and how much it meant to the overall story, I loved it even more. If you’re a fan of new adult romance this should definitely find its way onto your shelf.